I sit here with a blank sheet
wanting to write so much
but don’t know where to start
I hope it comes, but with no luck
so much to say
so much to hear
at the the age of sixteen
I am filled with fear.
I’m supposed to have fun
supposed to have a smile
but in the end it’s fake
more than just once in awhile.
I sit down to think
where I’m going in this life
if I ever speak of it
you can cut the air with a knife.
The dog runs and hides
the cats finally shut up
like they know whats happening
they know I’m fed up.
At sixteen I shouldnt be this pressured
I shouldnt have to make this choice
I can hurt so many and please so few
with just my voice.
To turn my back on my family
is what I to decide
just one of those times
you want to curl up and die.
I put them through so much
but they never show
how against it and scared they are
but, I know.
To do as I wish
is not that hard.
It’s the consequence
that sets the bar.
With two years till I leave
I can already see tears in her eye
I know she thinks, I didn’t survive
to send my boy off to die.
That’s what hurts me the most
not the yelling fighting or other.
The one thing is the
pure caring love of my mother.
The rewards would be great
the pain would be true.
To turn on my family
may this pain only be felt by few.
Contemplation
this poem is pertty umm well dark. and well not good.
so if u want to read it. im me and i will send it. im just not going
to post it on the internet.
Go Away
ok i think this one suck but it will be posted anyways
Here I lay again
not wanting to sleep
not wanting to write
not wanting to fight
I read your work
and it’s great, reading that
makes me want to quit
knowing your good and mine sounds like shit
I always try to find my space
but theres always someone better.
I try to write, paint, even play poker
but it seems I will forever be mediocre.
I start stuff not caring
because I know I will fail.
This come from a guy with no self esteem
a guy who is always swimming upstream
no matter how good my life gets
I always seem to mess it up.
Thinking of all the relationships that could have been
since summer that number reaches ten.
You get close to me watch out
I will push away and run
I am incapable of sticking around
to see what love could be found.
People say it’s casue I’m scared
other say it’s because I’m a guy
all I know is it’s something I hate
just hoping my life comes down to fate.
Cause if I get ahold of it
I’m bound to mess it up.
They say it’s just a mood I get in
maybe I’m just jealous of my kin
I’m not, I don’t care if you are better
I don’t care if you are closer
I will live my life how it be
your expectations I will not see.
I could care less if I suck
go ahead hate what I write
this is me, I write shit down
if it brings a smile or a frown.
Talk behind my back it doesn’t matter
you can keep beating me down
on my head I have the print of your shoe
but running over me won’t help you
I will forever be normal
and nothing more
I will work hard my whole life
and mess up even when I try to rhyme.
I could care less though
I will keep going on.
Some of you just want exposer
while others want some closure.
So I’ll expose this and hope this
gets your mouth to close.
I will continue to live and be grown
I love my life because it is my own.
How could u Understand??
Written by: Me (everything in this text is mine.)
In this world today
there is so much wrong
u can look down every street
and u hear the same song.
Everyone is hurting
everyone is in pain
because we are warring with eachother
just so one can reign
The worst thing in this world
from what is my belief
is when u take something good
and steal it like a thief
The worst is when u have a holiday
but u can only spend it in fear
because you don’t know what they are going to do
if they are going to hurt someone that is dear.
Or when u are on vacation
and u can’t see what u want to see
because the terror alert is so high
u can’t go in for reasons of security.
But even with all this wrong,
there is still one thing that that is worse
when someone has a dream
but those that are close think u will just end up in a hearse
Do u know how it feels,
to want something so bad
and those that u love don’t support you
no matter what you say, they just get mad.
Do u know how it feels,
to want support because you know the task is daunting
but when u go to seek it,
ur told that they won’t help and this is ur thing.
To know that what u want to do is considered crazy
and that your told this every day.
That people don’t think that you can do it
they think this will just fade away.
But you know deep down inside
that this is what you want
they say take a safer route; do a different job
for we don’t want your ghost to haunt.
They can’t understand ur reasoning
and most of the time don’t even try.
The only people that actually could
are over there fighting and risking the chance of them to die.
So u can’t talk with the people
that really understand
and all your left with
are the people who won’t hold ur hand.
But deep down inside u just want to cry out
and let all those doubters know
that u will prevail and complete this task
this dream and ambition will never go
I will do this no matter what you say
ur comments cannot veer me.
U can keep trying to convince me
from going to the military
But it is my love
it is what I want to do.
I will have a civilian life
but only once this is through.
I will get my education
I will be promised a career.
I will fight for my country.
And I will always love those dear.
But u can not stand in my way
for one day I will be 18.
And once that day comes.
I will leave with or without u being seen.
So now it is your choice
to support you kid,
or u can let me do this on my own.
For the rest of your life u will have to look back and live with what
you did.
Bitchin with Cole
by Cole Carmichael
I would like to thank hein for lettin me
do some bitchin so here we go 1. if u dont know now u do im democrat
and hein would know because i like to argue with him about bush no i
believer there are good republicans in fact great ones but bush isnt
republican he hids behind it infact hes twisted and ULTRA-CONSERVATIVE
repeat that now... i just believe the world will be better off without
bush i mean i give him some support when he shows me the WMD's 2. ahh
the high school theres some great people up there and then theres the
freshman class who wanna ruin the whole social whatever at the high
school i mean u people think about it do we have any group of people
(jocks, druggies for example) that run everybody i mean that are looked
up too i mean no we all learned to get along because we are the few
that from the start are left and we dont wanna do that shit but the
freshman class have a group of girls that calls themselves the fab five
who run shit in there class and its a damm shame the sophomores are
the last of a dying breed we built a social democracy if u will call
it please and they wanna turn it back into a monarchy it cant happen
3. yes i know im the guy who is loud and keeps the laughs goin but if
u want me to take off my shirt and run through a dance or the pep assmebly
or game..etc. im gunna punch u 4. why does everybody in the town think
they are badasses 5. dont mess with texas 6. everybody blew up at me
when i found about the josey stuff and i aint gunna do anything so u
can all stop bein tattle tails and stop worrying 7. OUR CLASS QUOTE
LIQUOR BEFORE BEER YOUR IN THE CLEAR..BEER BEFORE LIQUOR IT'LL MAKE
YOUR SICKER....this has been bitchin with cole
The Hallowed Hollow Ground
The late Diedrich Knickerbocker once wrote
A mans quest for gold but ended up smote.
The riches of Van Tassel saw his eye
His turn of heart will have caused him to die.
He was not pleased with the life he once led
Get what he wants, a heart to be misled.
Although in the end he did not succeed,
Nature always puts right those dirty deeds.
A grotesque figure at night he once met
Would right the wrong and his place to be set.
Seek out love on grounds unknown to the heart
Love and death wont seem very far apart.
